if you're going to be hopeful on a subjective matter.. don't state time frames.... it's subjective.
chu says:
you know...im kinda glad youre not dating anyone after I talked to Kyrie today
Alder Wiki says:
chi? -head tilt-
chu says:
-- is having the hardest time, ---- is accepting of --'s changeover only emotionally... but wont have sex with her... and she said that hereto sex hurts her member... that she chemically cant stand to have it function anymore due to the pain.
Alder Wiki says:
-nod-
chu says:
but ---- wont have lesbian sex with her... says it does nothing for her...
Alder Wiki says:
sad.
it's a tough thing, and I know it's this giant looming thing.
chu says:
im really glad you dont have to deal with that right now...
Alder Wiki says:
which utterly kills my confidence.
chu says:
and im kinda worried about you for future partners after hearing all this...
Alder Wiki says:
-shrug-
chu says:
well i dont want them to be so mean...
Alder Wiki says:
Mostly, by the time I am able to have a steady relationship, It wouldn't be a massive problem.
Because it's not starting out as one thing and shifting to another, they'd know the deal when entering into the agreement.
but, I'm not really thinking of it all... since I'm still having to relearn socialisms and yeah.
chu says:
nod nod... i feel so bad for -- shes thinking about killing her drive just so she can stay with her... she doesnt wanna lose ---- due to her shift but shes got alot of turmoil thats often ending in fights because ---- is insecure and possessive
Alder Wiki says:
-nod-
chu says:
*flails* i want you to have nice mates!
Alder Wiki says:
-shrug-
chu says:
*turns head and huffs* well sorry for caring
Alder Wiki says:
I'll end up with what I end up with.
not like I'd stay with someone if I'm not happy.
chu says:
I know you wont
Alder Wiki says:
and, it'll be a long while before any of that happens.
as I'm not confident atm to even try for one night business.
chu says:
yours will be alot more stable when youre at 1.4 years
Alder Wiki says:
my what.
chu says:
status
of being
Alder Wiki says:
my status of being and confidence in myself can't be timed.
I could gain confidence in myself in a month. or not for 10 years.
chu says:
im aware, i was trying to give support and be hopeful for you. Why shoot that down?
Alder Wiki says:
because giving a number to a subjective thing is silly.
chu says:
You shooting down your amount of growth is silly. I think you can do just about anything when youre headstrong about it enough. You shouldnt down on your ability to rise so much.
Alder Wiki says:
saying I can gain confidence in a month instead of over a year is shooting myself down?
chu says:
why are you being so condesending when im trying to be supportive of you?
I was merely stating i think youll be alot more stable than -- when youre at 1.4 years.
Alder Wiki says:
I'm just saying, giving any span of time to something subjective as ones mental state, has very little worth, even more so when judging it on someone elses expiriences which are different during the base line start.
I've never had confidence in myself, it's a think I've learned to live with. I know I'll always be socially awkward and feel like I never fit in. It's just how things are, no matter what others see me as.
Transitions or not, I will always find flaw in myself and why others will see me as useless and tolerate me simply because I'm benign enough to not need be gotten rid of.
chu says:
Its like youre trying to shoot down me having faith in your ability to grow. I see you as this person whose come through alot already in the time from leaving your husband to now and has grown alot. Just appriciate a compliment and move on.
You really have done alot, im not saying you /dont/ have flaws but ive seen your dramatic increase in the ability to be happy and strive forth for yourself. I just like reminding you youre pretty cool to me...thats what friends do.
Alder Wiki says:
I know... I'm just horribly stuck in my meladramatic ultra logic state.....
chu says:
*taps head* should just learn to accept compliments, they do make you feel better about yourself when you can see what we see
Alder Wiki says:
but only if you see what the others see.
chu says:
then start looking!
can always ask ^.^
Alder Wiki says:
I refuse to look anymore.
because all the looking does, it highlight my flaws to myself.
chu says:
so negative lol *prods*
Alder Wiki says:
-shrugs-
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